It’s not easy…
February 13, 2007 by nursham
It’s not easy to be me…
Well, that is NOT EXACTLY what he said. He simply asked me to consider his situation when I started to be a nagging sister… yea I can be that from time to time. That’s what your big brother is for. Hehehe…
Until last week - then I promised myself that I will stop being the little sister. Instead, I can be his reliable little sister.
My brother falls sick last Tuesday. If it is me to fall sick, people will just reminding me to go to clinic. But definitely not my brother. He rarely fall sick (actually I started to think he is taking all the strong gen and left the weak gen for me :p) He fall sick once every two years. The worst condition will be once every year. But once he fall sick… he really IS SICK…
But on Thursday, the doctor (second visit) said he is suspected dengue. On Friday, positive dengue. He is warded at nearby Hospital. On Sunday… the doctor almost give us a heart attack ~ denggi berdarah? He looked cool there (macam lah pernah tengok dier kelam-kabut… ehehe). But here the doctor said… denggi berdarah. The lung got some liquid inside… probably blood. Probably not. I pray to Allah it is not as bad.
Alhamdulillah he is recovering very fast. Resting at home now.
The main thing is not only about dengue, but how we have to face the days without him. Having my everyday cores at home and office is tiring. But having to take over his task while not leaving mine is a big challenge. Tired. Really am tired. Settle the cores, pay the bills… I think the worst is on Friday when I have to use the long lunch break to go home, settle what ever things need to settle and go back to office. Not to mention when I have to drive like maniac and jump from one car to another to get the task done. Thank God I have a very understanding boss. I was slightly late…
It makes me realize, I do take him for granted. And I only helped when asked. It is not something you should do to a person who devoted his times beside his studying hours to look over his family.
And it also makes me realized: it’s not easy to be him. No matter how tired, he just has to move on…
iT’S NoT EaSY To Be aNYoNe! aND iF You THiNK DeePLY… iT’S aLSo NoT eaSY FoR uS To Be ouRSeLVeS. i THiNK THaT’S WHY HiM BeCoME HiMSeLF, You BeCoMe YouRSeLF aND Me BeCoME MYSeLF.