~Life Goes On~

It’s so rare to find a friend like you
Somehow when you’re around, the sky is always blue
The way we talk, the things you say
The way you make it all ok
And how you know, all of my jokes, but you laugh anyway!

If I could wish for one thing, I’d take the smile that you bring,
Wherever you go in this world I’ll come along!
Together we dream the same dream.
Forever I’m here for you, you’re here for me.
Oh ooh oh.
Two voices, one song.

Now everyday is something new
And any path we take, I’m looking forward to
The way we try and never quit
The way that all the pieces fit
The way we know, the parts by heart
And sing out loud!!!

If I could wish for one thing, I’d take the smile that you bring,
Wherever you go in this world I’ll come along!
Together we dream the same dream.
Forever I’m here for you, you’re here for me.
Oh ooh oh.
Two voices, one song.

And anywhere you are,
you know I’ll be around.
And when you call my name,
I’ll listen for the sound!

If I could wish for one thing, I’d take the smile that you bring.
Wherever you go in this world, I’ll come along!
Together we dream the same dream.
Forever I’m here for you,
you’re here for me.
Oh ooh oh.
Two voices, one song.

If I could wish for one thing, I’d take the smile that you bring,
When you ride my side I can’t go wrong, Now I have bold up my knee
And the sweetest sound we’ll always be
Oh ooh oh.
Two voices, one song.
Oh ooh oh.
Two voices, one song.
Oh ooh oh.
Two voices, one song.

(I am still looking for the mp3 actually.)

Pinjamkan aku bahumu
biarpun untuk sedetik waktu
kerana aku tidak mampu
menanggung rasa di kalbu
yang bermukim serasa seabad lalu

Pinjamkan aku bahumu
untuk ku tongkatkan
tatkala penat berjalan
menempuh ranjau semalam

Pinjamkan aku bahumu
dan kalau kau benarkan
bolehkah kupinjam tanganmu?
meminjam kekuatan
meminjam semangatmu?

Pinjamkan aku bahumu
dan jikaku menangis
bolehkan ku pinta
bukan untuk mengesat air mataku
tetapi menemaniku
dalam diam
bolehkah kau mengerti
biarpun aku terus membisu?

Kerana sesungguhnya
jalan ini pasti sunyi tanpa sahabat sepertimu
jalan ini pasti jauh tanpa teman yang tahu
jalan ini pasti berliku tanpa handai seperahu
kerana
aku perlu tahu
jikalau aku perlu berhenti dan menghela nafas dalam
kau masih ada di situ
meminjamkan bahumu

Tak sangka dah setahun berlalu…
Walaupun ucapannya masih sama…

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK…

Do’a malaikat Jibril menjelang Ramadhan "Ya Allah tolong abaikan puasa ummat Muhammad, apabila sebelum memasuki bulan Ramadhan dia tidak melakukan hal-hal yang berikut:

• Tidak memohon maaf terlebih dahulu kepada kedua orang tuanya (jika masih ada);
• Tidak berma’afan terlebih dahulu antara suami isteri;
• Tidak bermaafan terlebih dahulu dengan orang-orang sekitarnya.

Mata kekadang salah melihat,
hati kekadang salah menduga,
mulut kekadang silap berbicara,
mohon maafkan segala khilaf yang pasti ada…

SALAM RAMADHAN…

Yes, it has been awhile (2 months ++). Bukan pasal tak mo update blog sendrik, tp psl frendster ni suker main sorok2.
Mari baca citer (chronological order):

1) Patah hati itu…
2) Adesh… trojan
3) Andai kiter terpaksa berpisah satu hari nanti…
4) That’s so sweet
5) Choc Cake Anyone?
6) Blessed

Nilah citer yang dah kutulis, tapi tak leh letak dalam FS ni time tu… bacala kalu rajin, nak komen situ pon buley

Sekarang ni… masuk mood malas.
Kabo awal (in case kalau jumpe update blog lagi 2 bulan…)
Eheheh

From here.

Memandangkan Fiza dah merequest aku tulis… maka aku akan berusaha menulisnya. Asalnya nak tulis time dier online, dpt la idea (diri sendrik punye perangai pon kena request idea.. kekeke). Tapi aku kene tulis kat opis la tu… maunye kene tangkap ngan orang yg rajin ambush aku… ekekek.

Sebelum start, meh ku cut and pastekan serba sedikit pasal TAG ni:

Rule of the Tag: Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 weird things as well as clearly state this rule. After you state your 6 weird things, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says "you’re tagged" in their comments and tell them to read your blog for information as to what it means.

Things that might my make me a weirdo…

1) Pepagi cakap laju-laju, pepetang cakap haru-biru
Quote from my bro. Pasal ape, pepagi time nak p keje, semua duduk kat meja makan, tp semua orang bz nak pergi kerja. Breakfast and short chat. I will talk (almost) in points so that I will be able to leave in time. At dinner time, I would normally feel very tired. And most of the time, I won’t be able to provide the accurate words properly and may caused some ‘chaos’ at the dining table…

2) Short Term Memory
Okay, those who know me wil know how bad I am with this problem. Can u imagine talking to a girl by first introducing your name and just talk abou two or three sentences and she asked you back, I am sorry; what is your name again? Irratating isn’t it? Well I am one of the girl (peace ). And things might get worst. Once, I supposed to meet a girl who I just met once before that, at a shopping mall. I totally forgot her face! Wawawa… luckily she manage to grab me and said: hey, are you ok. I wave crazily at you just now. My not so frank reply: Sorry, my head is elsewhere

3) Born without cold resistance
Not cold as in fever, but cold as in whether. Orang lain masuk lab bukak aircon, I masuk lab tutup aircon. Orang lain tidur bukak kipas, I tidur tutup kipas. Orang lain pakai baju dua lapis, I kene pakai long johns.. .ekekeke

4) Watching TV even I don’t like the show
If my mind is set: I want to watch TV, I will watch them even if I am forced to watch HINDUSTAN drama! Haahah. Bengong, that’s what my kid brother said.

5) Keeping unnecessary things (which we call as sentimental value)
I guess it is not really a weird thing for anybody. But what if you keep all your Kerja Kursus during your Form 1 until form 3? (My mom manange to convince me to throw some BTW). Even my teddy bear (gifts from friends) can fill into a whole wardrobe… (that one I am not throwing away, of course. The thing is… erm, where should I put my other belongings?

6) If anything… just SLEEP
Okay… I guess, not so weird also. But what if… you are very angry, and you don’t want to face the world. Or, what if, no body at home and you don’t feel like going out as well. Or you are in terrible pain, and you are alone and you cannot drive to the nearest doctor; or you simply feel lazy and don’t want to do anything; or worst, your hobby is sleeping… ekekek. Yup, sleep; the best medicine.

I hope, these will do. Not really successfully provide all 6 novel weird attitude; but voila…

So, who’s going to be the next.. since my friends in multiply ni pon tak banyak, I extend the ‘invitation’ to my friends in friendsters and blogspot as well…And the nomination goes to…
1) Hasmah: junior ku yg sgt malas tulis blog, tp rajin baca blog Saje nak mendera
2) Nuha: member kekanakku yg sangat kurindui
3) Komtar: saje je.. psl dier la yg ada update multiply ni slain Fiza.. eekekk
4) Nazi: member sorang ni rajin sket update blog dier… pastu, aku pon suker giler baca amenda dier tulis

5) Zarul: memang tak leh dimaapkan la kalu tertinggal nama member sorang nih. FS dier. Sorrik Zarul, Hana tau Zarul bz, dah siap assigment ke, dah tiba masa nak tulis blog ke… tulis ek… ekekek
6) Shimah: pasal akulah pengunjung blog nye yg setia… keskeskes

Sebenarnye, nak letak gak nama Ecah, Dibah, Amal, Ubay, Abg Man, Fakhrul… tapi tau diorng ni tak de blog. Pastu nak letak gak Zurai or P-Ja, tapi sian plak kat diorg… BEEZZZYYY… bz buat persiapan kawen ni, bz nak exam; ekeke. Pastu nak gak kacau si Adawiyah, Yan and the gang. Tapi saya pon tak tau status korang skrg ni… eheh. Tp, kalaulah korang boleh tulis, bagi tau ek korang letak kat mana; akan ku baca walaupun BZ tahap gaban…

Menara Gading

Kita bertemu di hari ini
di Perkampungan Menara Gading
kita menjadi saksi
berhimpunnya anak-anak negeri

Membawa bersama harapan ibu bapa
mencari secebis ilmu
buat bekalan di dada
dalam mencari keredhaan-Nya

Kitakan bertemu lagi
tika melangkah ke menara gading
pertemuan pertama kali
berteraskan keimanan membuah persaudaraan
itulah ikatan di hati

Kita bersama tempuhi segala halangan
berbekal iman dan tarbiyah
berserta sedikit ilmu dan pengalaman
dan berkat doa ibu dan bapa

Sahabat
Kita bersama membawa
harapan dan cita-cita
menjadi insan yg bertaqwa

Menara
menjadi titik bermula
ukhuwah sesama kita
untuk berbakti pada semua

Kerana cinta pada Yang Esa
Kerana ukhuwah kita bersama

P.S: Lagu ada kat My Profile

It’s not easy to be me…

Well, that is NOT EXACTLY what he said. He simply asked me to consider his situation when I started to be a nagging sister… yea I can be that from time to time. That’s what your big brother is for. Hehehe…

Until last week - then I promised myself that I will stop being the little sister. Instead, I can be his reliable little sister.

My brother falls sick last Tuesday. If it is me to fall sick, people will just reminding me to go to clinic. But definitely not my brother. He rarely fall sick (actually I started to think he is taking all the strong gen and left the weak gen for me :p) He fall sick once every two years. The worst condition will be once every year. But once he fall sick… he really IS SICK…

But on Thursday, the doctor (second visit) said he is suspected dengue. On Friday, positive dengue. He is warded at nearby Hospital. On Sunday… the doctor almost give us a heart attack ~ denggi berdarah? He looked cool there (macam lah pernah tengok dier kelam-kabut… ehehe). But here the doctor said… denggi berdarah. The lung got some liquid inside… probably blood. Probably not. I pray to Allah it is not as bad.

Alhamdulillah he is recovering very fast. Resting at home now.

The main thing is not only about dengue, but how we have to face the days without him. Having my everyday cores at home and office is tiring. But having to take over his task while not leaving mine is a big challenge. Tired. Really am tired. Settle the cores, pay the bills… I think the worst is on Friday when I have to use the long lunch break to go home, settle what ever things need to settle and go back to office. Not to mention when I have to drive like maniac and jump from one car to another to get the task done. Thank God I have a very understanding boss. I was slightly late…

It makes me realize, I do take him for granted. And I only helped when asked. It is not something you should do to a person who devoted his times beside his studying hours to look over his family.

And it also makes me realized: it’s not easy to be him. No matter how tired, he just has to move on…

Okay, I think I pick the title to make it look a bit cathcy… Not so serious thinking required while reading this article… ehehehe.

I asked this question to one of my friend: If you are to die tomorrow, how you rate your life from range 1 to 5 which 1 means poor and 5 means excellent.

He said it will be 2. Because they are still a lot he didn’t achieve. But actually life here (as in this world) is always empty. The ultimate destination is the judgement day. The real measurement will come later… he said.

Hehehe… I understand and agree with him. But that is not what I asked for. I think I didn’t ask the question correctly.

Probably I should ask this way: Do you wish you do more in your life than you currently doing? If it is something possible, will you do it now? OR would you like to stay in the safe side of your life (assuming now is the safe side)? If you like, do give your opinion.

"If you are going to die today. Will you be satisfied?": the question is originally asked by my dear friend (who is not Muslim) in the search of; one - how to live your life to the fullest and two - to solve my dilemma (let’s not go there yet).

me: If you ask me NOW. Yes. I am very satisfied with what I have done. It far from perfect but it is ok.
ttp: then just continue what you are doing now.
me: I am not sure I will answer the same if you ask me again in the next 5 years…
ttp: why is that?
me: well, it is the same with my question to you last time. You worked in a very prestigous company, with good salary, good prospect, good working environment. How come you let it go?
ttp: boredom? in the context we talked last time, we are talking about job. There is no context of boredom in life. It’s either you live or you die.
me: there is
ttp: wanna be the next aristotle, meh? hehehe.
me: drop the topic
ttp: hehehe. ok ok. the point is: How you want to live your life.
me: meaning?
ttp: think about it. how do people live their life?
me: well, it pretty obvious…
ttp: yes, what normal people do; go to work, make an income, have a happy family…
me: is there any opposite side of it
ttp: of course. continue to be odd like me and like what you use to be when you were a student…
me: ok. but there is nothing wrong with it.
ttp: yup. and there is nothing wrong with being normal either. actually it is easier… heheheh.
me: why did we even think about doing what we are doing?
ttp: creating a better world i guess…
me: yea… we are real dreamers…

At the moment of the conversation, I think of Nazi… she loves joining walfare and social services (can I call it that way Nazi?). Go to orphanage house, helping people in need… She is an example of a person who live her life to the fullest I guess.

It also reminded me of a say: Erti hidup pada memberi…

Sejak PC rosak bulan Disember, banyak betol benda tak terpost. Antaranya:

1) Conference Speech Processing… Aku jumpa Nick Campbell!!! Bak kata Sab; Hana, pakwe you scheduled to come… jgn tak datang… What an interesting person. Korang takkan sangka dia se-terkenal Mahatma Ghandi dikalangan org speech processing. Hikhikhik.

2) My Best Friend’s Wedding. Ari tu siap letak lagu tema My Best Friend’s Wedding lagi kat profile; khas untuk Abg Man & isteri ;D

3) Raya Aidiladha… kt rumah. Bahagianyaaaa

4) Research Group kitorang dipindahkan dari department A ke department B dan dari department B masuk ke department C dan ditarik masuk semula ke department A dalam masa dua minggu! Memula tu dah rasa nak cabut dah. Nasib baik Prof Zarin tarik kitorang balik masuk bawah dia…. muahahah (dan masih buat research yang sama…. hurayyyy!!!) Alhamdulillah.

5) Awal Muharam. Azam tahun baru? Cepat la sambung… tapi masih dalam dilemma… ke mana hati hendak dibawa…

6) Aku kena siren Touch n Go buat pertama kalinya. Nasib baik tak jem tol tu dibuatnya… Dan nasib baik orang in charge tu sangat bersopan-santun… dan ensem… muahahah.

7) Naza’s wedding. Ye ye, aku tau wedding belah perempuan lebih dekat ngan rumah aku. Hussein, thanks for trying to reach me. Sorry, tak dengar bunyi tepon. Apsal tak cakap awal2 nak konvoi. Tapi pasal aku dpt invitation drpd Naza, aku plan nak g rumah dia weekend ni. Tapi (lagi) sesungguhnya, aku sangat malas… Soalnye, Naza yang kawen ni… ada plak yang merajuk karang… muahahhaah. Mengenangkan bantuan dia yang tak pernah putus time aku buat Master dulu (apsal la bunyinya cam dah lama ar), aku tau… aku musti datang. Akan ku usahakan yeak, Naza. Selamat Pengantin Baru!

Kesimpulannya, Muharam ini, aku diseluputi dilemma… apsal… nnt la. Akan bersambung…. kuikuikui (Zzul, dah lama tak buat gelak ni).